Infertility answered

Haven't updated in a while. Moved to Nevada and haven't had the best luck health wise. The week we got here, I was in urgent care with pain. Turns out I have an enlarged ovary and it has a suspicious looking cyst on it according to the latest ultrasound I had for it. So now I am waiting to hear from university of Utah about what their plan in treatment is going to be. I'm scared and nervous. And the reason I'm scared and nervous is because if I had to have surgery to remove my ovary, that's a 50/50 chance on the other ovary producing fertile eggs. Which lowers the chances of a baby. Also, if I have to go through radiation, that could cause infertility as well. Possibly making me incapable of producing eggs. I have been told that UofU is a great place for oncology. Is it selfish of me to wish this wasn't my trial to go through? I just feel like I am at a breaking point with all the things being put on my plate. Its said God doesn't give you more than you can handle, but I'm starting to question His limits (not really)....